Today I am 579 days sober, and it’s all thanks to you.
Hey everyone! Today I'm 579 days “sober” after I started suboxone treatment. I don't consider myself completely sober, as I am still dependant on suboxone. Two days before I started, I made a post here on my account (which I can't use anymore due to it being too much of a reminder). When I made the post saying I was done, that I'm tired of being sick and only using to avoid WD's and not because I enjoy it, I got the typical “see you soon” or “you'll be back” posts, but I also got a lot of support. I asked what I could expect, I told you guys that I was scared, and most of you believed in me. You called me down and reassured me. You helped me. And at the time, you had much more faith in me than I did. I wanted to thank you and this community for helping me through the worst part of my life when I was using, and also when I was recovering. Your words, whether you meant it or not, really saved me, as I didn't want to live like that anymore. I want you to know that no matter how far gone you are, or how badly you think it's too late, or how you don't believe you could ever actually quit… you can. It is never too late to quit. Ever. If you've even considered quitting, it means that your brain is already on the path of quitting. I honestly believe that if I can do it, so can you. Sure, you will still have to live with the reason why you started in the first place, whether it's trauma, depression and anxiety, or mental illness or… Well, anything, you can get help for that. I started using because I was suicidal and I knew this would help. And it did. For years and years, it put a bandaid on, and I never killed myself, suicidal thoughts weren't as prevalent… but they came back when I quit. Now I'm seeing a therapist on antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication, and I might be for a long time. But it's miles better than what it was before. To sum up, thank you for believing in me when I didn't. It's never too late. You're not too far gone. You're not too old. You're not so damaged. You can quit if you want to. But you do have to want to quit. Thank you what you've done for me. I believe in you. If you have any questions, or just wanna talk, I'm always free to help a friend.